We just got back from our honeymoon in Kauai…and it was truly amazing. Tom and I LOVED this time to get away together and genuinely relax. We did as much as we could during our 7 days– hiked, flew, drove ATV’s, attended a luau, spent multiple afternoons on the beach… it was perfect. ❤
We googled multiple times “how to move to Kauai” last week. We felt so at home there, like our personalities and minimalistic lifestyles fit right in. We had to keep reminding ourselves that if we ACTUALLY lived there, it wouldn’t be the pure paradise we were experiencing. We would have to work and sacrifice. That made it a littttttle bit easier to say goodbye!
The school year is going wonderfully, and we only have a few weeks left. This year has flown by. The second year of teaching was definitely a lot easier than the first year. I look forward to the third year 🙂
I’m definitely still on Kauai time, because I’m wide awake at 1 AM contemplating things that are way too complex to be thinking on when one should be asleep… I thought I might as well just write it out, so I can be done with it for tonight and get some rest.
The day before we left on our honeymoon, I got a letter from my dad. Twice in the letter, he wrote the phrase “in case I don’t see ya anymore.” Reading those words quite literally brought me to the floor. I called him immediately and scheduled a visit for next Sunday…because this just can’t be the way things go (…end.)
Anticipatory grief is a terrible thing. You wonder if every conversation will be your last, you wonder what you should have done differently, and what you should be doing differently each day… a lot has happened, between my dad and I, over the years. It’s all water under the bridge when it comes to facing the possibility of death.
Our time is not infinite, and talking about that makes us uncomfortable. I keep telling myself, “Just say what you need to say, and do what you need to do.” At the end of the day, the person most affected by my choices is ME. But those same choices affect others in immeasurable ways, and I want to take responsibility for that.
I had this overwhelming moment while we were on a helicopter, flying over Kauai last week… from the ground, there just appeared to be mountains on Kauai. But from the sky, we saw probably 20 waterfalls hidden among them… mountain goats that you’d never know lived there…and even a rainbow.
Seeing all of this from high in the sky, I just had this moment where I got all choked up and realized that this world will go on without us. We are all so small and our time is relatively short. It gave me a moment of peace, rather than despair.
No pain lasts forever. Millions of people have experienced just about anything you will experience. And life just keeps marching on… it’s an oddly comforting thought, to me.
We’re a part of something much bigger than ourselves. And it is up to us to determine how significant of a mark we will leave.
Well, I’m not sure what the point is, but whatever I’ve written has given me the feeling that I can finally go to sleep. I’ll end on this thought:
“Hurt people hurt people. That’s how pain patterns get passed on, generation after generation after generation. Break the chain today. Meet anger with sympathy, contempt with compassion, cruelty with kindness. Greet grimaces with smiles. Forgive, and forget about finding fault. Love is the weapon of the future.” -Yehuda Berg